I too agree, find another Doctor! Your present physician is not “fully understanding” your wishes. Call if you can, American Life League, they are a pro-life organization who will be able to “guide” you in the right direction and hopefully you will be able to find a Catholic doctor in your area.
Pray to Our Blessed Mother at all times. Don’t despair! Offer your sufferings for the poor souls in Purgatory! They need your prayers and
they are praying for you too.
Keep us posted, we are all “hanging in there” for YOU!