I too am trying to recover from my husband’s affair. We also practice NFP and I home school our son, and work fulltime overnocs on weekends. My husband was working and finishing up a BS fulltime in the evenings and met a woman there. He broke contact with her just last Wednesday and he is missing her and that is killing me. I constantly fear he is going to change his mind to leave us. I feel his ambivilance and my anxiety is flying through the roof. I feel like I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I feel so stuck, I don’t want him to leave and lose my marriage but I am going crazy with him staying, waiting for the other shoe to drop. I feel like I cannot handle another betrayel. I am devestated. I wish I could help you, heck I wish I could be helped. We are in CAtholic counseling and I am seeing my MD for medical help but I still don’t know how I will get through this. I have been relying on God but I still feel like I am going under. I hope things get better for you soon. God be with you.