thank you both for your replies.
i feel in my heart that this i am in the right place, but its hard with the culture of “career women” and daycare being the norm.
i am thinking more and more of NFP but am skeptical of becoming pregnant too soon….we are really having financial hard times, and my husb. has a young daughter from before our marriage that we pay child support for. right now with my PPD i psychologically dont think i could handle another baby for at least a year or two. i am afraid NFP wont work…is it really efffective?? it seems most people i know who use it have 6+kids….not that theres anything wrong with that, just that it makes me wonder if NFP works.