I can see from your post that you have questions and concerns about birth control and the Church’s stance on it. Sometimes it’s easy to rush to opinions and believe everything that is told to you or that you read somewhere. The best place to go for information is a knowledgeable source, solid in true Catholic teaching. We are so fortunate to have the internet at our fingertips because there are so many sources for us to use in finding out more about our beautiful faith. Just be careful to check out each site to be sure that it is truly Catholic.
We should never stop learning about our Faith. Sometimes we are meant to learn patience and tolerence in a gentle, quiet way. God Bless You and your family. If you need some addresses for some wonderful sites that I have discovered, please ask.
Peace and Blessings,