I am sorry you are going through this, but when I read this I knew I had to reply with my own experience. A few years ago my husband became verbally abusive and even threw me out due to the unexpected pregnancy of our second child. I continued to serve him and my children in the best way I knew how because I made a promise to God when I got married. I prayed to God and attended mass regularly. This and therapy may work for you to learn how to cope. God answered my prayers because he returned to the wonderful husband that I always knew he was. Everyone has hard times, and we don’t always know why. God tests us.