Welcome to the forum!
Yes, you’re letting yourself worry about the future more than you should. I’m glad you’re looking for support because as moms I think it’s easy for us to get carried away with worry.
As long as you continue to discern, God will open your heart to His will. Keep your chin up & keep lifting your heart to Our Lady & she will give you the strength and means you need for whatever Christ is calling you to do.
Much love in Him who loves us,